She is afraid to come closer to him,
What if he discovers the devil in her and screams?
Reluctant in letting him hold her hand,
What if he sees the scars of cutting she is hiding under her wrist-band?
Afraid to look into his eyes,
Her eyes hold a tempestuous storm of feelings and emotions brewing like high tides.
She will not let him see the darkness that lurks inside.
And yet her eyes just cannot hide!
There is so much to tell him that it makes her desperate.
But knows that the words will later only make her regret.
Can’t make him understand what goes inside her troubled mind,
Tries…but her lips tremble as much she tries,
There is so much pain inside her, so much pain!
It overwhelms her, cripples her and makes her insane.
If only life was as short — as short as happiness is!
If only he could hold her tight — if only he would kiss!!
But she sobs herself to sleep…
Wondering if she will ever feel content and absolute bliss.
♡ XOXO ♡
© Fiona Crystal • July 25, 2015 | 12:54 AM
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