I got up today and realized that I have lost the will to live.
All the emotions of sadness, abandonment, grief, hopelessness, despair and so much more is building up and boiling inside me.
And yet my heart, my heart feels numb.
Its is as if a great weight has been put on my chest and I am sinking down in the deep ocean of darkness.
It is an overwhelming feeling of detachment from the life and this world.
An urgency to separate from all this Maya
I have never felt this tired of living. It is like a black hole consuming me from within.
I wonder…is this how one feels before they finally succumb and give up?