You are not crazy and it is okay to feel defeated. But you know why bad times are important? Because you only and always learn from bad times.
I got up today and realized that I have lost the will to live. All the emotions of sadness, abandonment, grief, hopelessness, despair and so much more is building up and boiling inside me. And yet my heart, my heart feels numb. Its is as if a great weight has been put on my chest [...]