I am so sorry.
I am so sorry that because of me you have to put up with all this and go through so much pain. As much as it hurts me to say this, I wish if I could go back in time and could take back the moment I said that I feel the same as you…that I love you.
Atleast then it would have been me who would be hurting right now. Atleast you could have forgotten me and moved on thinking that it was just a one sided feeling. Atleast I could just keep the pain and this poision of my life to myself rather then destroying your peace of mind and happiness.
But I so much mean it when I say this that I truly love you from the bottom of my heart. Every trace of my soul and every fragment of my body, mind and heart loves you. Truly madly deeply.
And as much I wish to turn back the clock of time and erase myself from your life…I do NOT regret a single tiny moment of it. I do not regret to have met you, to spend every moment possible with you, to be able to look into your eyes, touch you, hold you, kiss you, make love to you. I had waited my whole life for you and now that I finally have you, no matter how hard my life will get, I do not regret a single nano second of loving you.
As much as it hurts my soul but If I have to lie or die to spend what time I have with you… I will do it.
But I am sorry. You do not deserve all this. It hurts me to see you like this. You have no idea how much its hurting me. I wish I could die and you could move on and be happy.
Just my fault. All my fault.
And I cry myself to sleep every night because you are all I have.
“Mea culpa, mea culpa, mea maxima culpa.”