The pain of loving you

Smile….kisses…cuddles….butterflies
I thought this what love was….
Tears….heartbreak….loneliness….desperation
This is what love is when reality bites.

There is nothing left to revive…
Gazing in the mirror …I am looking at my sad eyes…
Walking down slowly on the empty road
There is no noise…everything is oh! so quiet..
Its just the shattering noises of the broken pieces of my soul…every once in a while.

I wipe my tears….hold myself tight…give myself a kiss good night…
I cry myself to sleep…..walk into the world of dreams…
I am too afraid to believe in smiles….
I dream of you and me every once in a while.

I hold you and you slip away…..
This pain and loneliness stays with me..
There is no escape…….

No matter how many promises you make…
I am used to this empty world
I am too afraid to trust and smile..
My wounds never heal with time..

My heart.. my soul….shattered in thousands of pieces I can’t take it anymore..
I sing myself to sleep every night…
I still hope of a day where I have to die every moment no more…