Day: March 20, 2013

DEAD PEOPLE LIKE ME!

Once i was alive &
I wished to live life..
I used to have fun
from my pain i never used to run.

I used to care about me so much
& i used to love myself so much
I used to trust everyone a lot..
& i used to live every moment & every thought

I had a lot of dreams
To do this &
to do that thing

Then slowly i became so alone
No one understood me.
Yeah! not even a single one!!

Suddenly i saw grey clouds
& the weather turned all Gloomy
the lightening sounded so loud!!

i didn’t even realize
& right before my eyes
It went so dark..
& Then the lamp went off..

To save myself from darkness
I forgot i always feared…
The Ghost of guilt n regrets..

I was so foolish
I thought i was saving myself
& i started running down the Hill..

then i fell & got my heart broken into pieces
the pain was so unbearable
then i went all numb

to get my mind off from my wound
I closed my eyes tight
When i got up i realized
I was not the same
& nothing was fine

I tried to Get up
I tried to act Brave
But i suddenly realized
I was lying beside a Grave

I tried to read the grave stone
& on it this was craved..
“The One That  i once Was”
may her soul rest in peace

Shiver ran Down my spine
when i realized
the one lying beneath it
was no one but me!!

Then i looked around
There were other graves as well..
All of them read..
Welcome to the numb but painful
WORLD OF DEAD!!

© Princess Fiona Crystal
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When the only thing ..you wanted to hear….after all the pain……suddenly becomes the reason….to make you so damn depressed again….making you remember…something happened……and you just can’t let go of the pain……all you want is to cry so damn hard….and just share your every burden…..with the person…..from where it started…..
But then you stop….and walk past him…..as if its alright……because you know…..he won’t understand….
And that is the last thing on the earth…..to cry in front of him…. and he would never hold you back ,wipe your tears and tell you that its all gonna be alright…..which would never happen….
So… .i wanna keep quite…and go on…as i have always done…as if nothing happened…..Damn!!!!!!……all i want is to get this freaking heart out of me and throw it away……….its all MY Fault……..He do not need to feel guilty for that…he do not need to say sorry for that……after all I was the one who fall in……and it will always be there…no matter how hard i try…..its just …won’t listen…..and it never had……..

Don’t know what I want right now. All I know is that I’m hurting so much inside that it’s eating me, and one day, there won’t be any of me left.

I just know that pain I felt so long ago, it’s hurting ten times more.

© Princess Fiona Crystal
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I just can’t live without u
m just longing for Ur love.
But u never say a word
But u never say a word

u were the love of my life
u were my best friend
& now we are apart …
it feels so strange

I had made u my world
Deeply I fall in love
I shared with you my feelings
But now there are tears all over

u are confused…
u keep on thinking
if u did love me
or u love me not

for u ..it was neither about if its right
nor was it about if its wrong
it was all about..
If u should love me
or u should not

One day u said u love me
very next day..u said that we are just friends
Never ever u realized..
U were mocking my thoughts
N u were playing with my feelings.

Everything is clearly imprinted in my mind
The cloud came together and then the sky turned grey
I was standing in the balconey
little drop of rain was falling over my face
& then u came..

How can i forget what you wore that day
Suddenly I touched you
& then all the Hell broke..

I was never the same after that
U made me feel guilty
& u moved away…
I still have that question.
was that all my fault??

U left my in tears..
u left me in Pain..
Never ever u realized..
U have set me up in flames

I was so alone
I am still so lonely
there is no one to understand me ..
& i don’t want anything else

As if u give a damn..
& why will u ever care
I guess Those were my feelings
I shouldn’t have ever shared.

Something has died inside me ..
& i Feel so numb
No one can ever ease my pain..
they can only make fun.

© Princess Fiona Crystal
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November night

From the book MUCH ADO ABOUT NOTHING

It wasn’t raining yet
But it was definitely misty
on that warm November night
And my heart was pounding
My inner voice resounding
Begging me to turn away
But I just had to see your face
To feel alive
And then you casually walked in the room
And I was twisted in the web
Of my desire for you
(And I was twisted)
My apprehension blew away
I only wanted you
To taste my sadness
As you kissed me in the dark

via-http://lovequote.com/

Tears in my eyes…
Pain in my heart….
As the time Flies….
We move apart…

No matter how hard i try…
To get u out of my mind…
I close my eyes…
n i see u inside….

I get up…and….Tears in my eyes

© Princess Fiona Crystal
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© Princess Fiona Crystal
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